nature has many checks and balances, and I'm currently being checked for being out of balance.
The worst part about opiates are that they work best when you’re off [or in my case, nearly off] them in general.
I haven’t gotten a high this solid in weeks - months, maybe, yet I was so close to getting off pills in general. I was taking nothing but Tramadol, give or take, for about two weeks. I could withdraw off that, I think, with ease compared to trying to withdraw after taking 30+ mgs a day in an array of pharmaceuticals. How many times am I going to say to my close friends, online or off, “pardon my shortness/disappearance, I’m coming off shit” before it actually happens?
But fuck dillys are great.
The only bad thing about opiates is how quickly your tolerance builds. God damnit.
Amen. The worst part about trying to get off is knowing that your tolerance drops and opiates will work best then.
I just wrote a whole post on pills and trying to come down and off but it seems that my reluctance in talking about this remains strong, even on a new blog. I want to get it out somewhere but where does one really start?
I have a problem with opiate painkillers. Few people know online, and even fewer know offline. There aren’t a lot of people, on or offline, that can relate and I suppose I’m looking to see others who do/done/trying not to do opiates.
I don’t boot, won’t boot, despite being trained in phlebotomy because I don’t want to open that door. I usually snort. When I’m feeling blue, I usually can only get my hands on 15s or 30s, otherwise its morphine or Ds. I take vics when I’m just trying to ‘stay normal’ [i.e. not come down], and I’ll replace those with Tramadol when I can. Despite that, I still have a hard time coming off shit.
I’m trying. If you are too, or aren’t - I don’t care - come say hello and maybe we’ll strike up a conversation.